HAPPY HALLOWEENNNN

I posted three things on ff.net, and I got LOTS of faves and reviews. ^.^ Made my day. :)

Writing a story is like venting a bad day... once I'm done and I read it over, I feel like the negative experience was worth the pain and suffering and I can smile and feel so much better. :)

Must do homework... >.< ;;

difference between like and love?

"It's not you, it's me..." 

LOTS of emphasis on the ME part... or I'm just hormonal, and when I'm like that, people say I'm blaming others for my problems... or is it that certain people these days aren't what they used to be back a few decades ago.

Most of my friends were or are in a relationship. I never had a boyfriend, except a line of ex-friends... but I suppose the friendship was waning anyways... One guy was kinda introverted, a tad mean, but... hehe The other was a plan ass, and is probably doing drugs. One guy taught me you could still be friends even if the feeling was not returned, and I'm still going strong with one friend who I'll probably see being friends for a long long time... It's just I wish I was one of those close friends for a certain person, and I didn't screw up as much... Or would he have faded out like the rest of the "acquaintances"? I respected him so much as a friend when I first met him... but I love him as a friend and "brother". That will never change.

I get scared or something when I here "I don't care". I have no idea... my mom says it to me, my brother does (well, duh, he's my brother...). I have no idea why I care so much... I only do it if I'm REALLY provoked and I get mad... One time I got so mad, so alienated, so lonely... I yelled at a certain person... and I said those words like an argument between my dad and my mother.

Unlucky star, flee from the skies and burn away... Brightest night, guide me to haven and rest.

:D

I placed in an application and resume at this shop. They told me to wait, so I did, and right on the spot I landed an interview. My first job interview ever... Still can't get over the shock. hehe...

I placed resumes to over ten places... Hope they won't be disappointed. hehe ;) Work experience, here I come!! :D

busyyy

I'm extremely busy this week... haha I'm seeing a friend after school this week, seeing my cousin for dinner on the weekend, photo op for grad, and getting in resumes for a job. hehe... Mother's been driving me up the wall about grad... perhaps budgeting, what not? Something... happened, and I'm trying to get over it. I just can't believe a family member would still do that to me... I told a friend and she told me to get serious help, but that's just going into child stuff I know since Elementary school. haha

Saw "The Social Network" with a friend on Friday. It was decent, but not my all time fave... interesting to see how Facebook came to be. Wonder how the people thought about the actors and events that were portrayed. Nice to see someone portrayed Grace Kelly's son the Prince of Monaco. haha

Tired... ;;

Must... do... homework! ;; My journalism teacher gives unreasonable deadlines.

marvelllll

Ultimate Marvel universe line comics rocks my socks... and are so funny. :D Better get into them. ^.^ I loved Fantastic Four. ^.^ Plus, I'm digging back into mangas such as Fruits Basket and Emma. <3 :) :D

Shakira's new song "Loca" is sexy. <3 Keep on rocking, Shakira! Te amo!! <3

I have three major projects on the go... ;; One of them was due... *coff*twoweeksago*coff* but never mind. *wide eyes off into the distance and big grin* If this was Deviantart I would use a lot of spazz icons... hehe :D Must... do... homework... ;; ><

A big newspaper run by students took my picture, and they're gonna put it in the paper. :} :D <3

Was gonna say something, but I forgot... *derp*

the world will look up and shout 'save us!' and I'll whisper 'no'

I'm obsessing over 'Watchmen'... I haven't the faintest why. Rorschach is soooooo fine. :3 :D

I feel so guilty not updating any of my fics in September... ;; ;A; Writer's block is a pisser, and October's halfway through. >< ;; I'm so sad...

Lizanne... Louise. I like those names. If I had a daughter, I'd pick one of those names (if I had a boy, I'd choose Owen). (Not saying because I'm pregnant! XD haha)

So tired... cold season must be coming in. Already, I miss summer. The thing is, it's uncanny. When I was younger, I was a little moody. I suppose all young girls go through that... I had it good back then, but when it does start to get good for me, all of a sudden... in high school it started to get bad around me (friends wise). I would have called myself a bad name when I was younger, but during high school... I didn't say a word about myself. It was so bad last summer due to... some people, but I'm glad to have gone through the drama since I've learned how to respect myself. It built me up, rather than humiliate me. Let go of pride and don't think of humiliation and how stained your reputation is, and you'll keep your sanity.

Nite for now! 

we love u snapeeeee

I have this crazy idea... It's a Harry Potter fanfic with OCs... AU-ish from the start of 'Order of the Phoenix' to 'Deathly Hallows'. With some character study and more research into the Harry Potter universe, I may get a good fic and some respectable attention...

Severus runs into an old classmate of his which leads into a domino effect of events.

Hm... first good line spewed so far. Hope I'll make it. :) :D

crazy inspriation

I feel like writing today... Writing a lot. haha Plus, I need to catch up on the last Harry Potter book so I'll be on time for the movie. hehe... Damn, short attention span... XP

It will be my mother's birthday on Monday, so I have to prepare for the day. ^.^ hehe

When I'm in an "inspirational" mood, I get so gitty I clear the space away, get out some music and start dancing. Plus some pink, sugary thoughts come along with a side of shojo "romantic boy-girl" moments. XD haha

what the...

This blog is saving my sanity... I'm so glad I decided to write in this from the start. ^.^

Usually, I have bouts of negative moods, but I'm at a low. Between one and ten, I'm at the lower middle, so I'm fine, it's just... a lot of things have been on my mind.

I just wish my mother would accept me as an individual, with my values and what I want to do in the future. I wanted to talk with her privately, but by brother was in the room. I asked her if he could go out but she wouldn't do anything about him leaving. I swore I could have heard that my brother being in the room was a good thing. ugh... Don't get me started on about him. 

When my teacher was talking about grad and at the banquet part of the ceremony we could sit with our friends, I got scared. Scared that I would be rejected. Rejected to a seating. It's always been complicated... I've never been around long enough for a "permanent friendship group" in my life... Either I don't feel like I belong with them, or I'm too impatient. I love to love people and it pains me when I hurt someone. Before I was self actualized, there was this period of time when I felt the need to please everyone in my life, but I would receive failed results and everything would back fire on me. But I hope... for grad, when the time comes I will sit with the people who stayed true to me ever since the beginning.

Speaking of my mother, I fear for my dad. He's getting old and a little moody, it's just... I wish I could do something to help him. (Would add more, it's just... so tired...)

It's so frustrating everyday, that I'm surprised I'm still alive typing to the empty space that is the internet... I fear that I'll be a stranger to people, inside the family and out... but I could just be over reacting.

*~Let a lucky star guide my way and lead me out of the darkness...

grad

It's so freaky... grade one, then grade two, then soon I moved to another school for grade three. Then once I was done grade seven I moved to another part in my country for junior high. Now this is my last year of high school. Then it's off to college... When I was little I wanted to grow up faster, but now that I'll almost be an adult, it's frighting. I suppose there are things that I haven't done yet and I just need to take time to adjust to everything and think about what's important. *sigh* Where's Neverneverland when you need it? ... PETER PANNNNNNN ;; ><' Hey, at least it's like... an anti-aging place. :'D XD

I got a dress over the summer and friends tell me to save it for grad. I haven't worn it yet, so yeah... Luckily, it survived my closet, which I'm glad... an accident happened in there. ;; DX 

Homework's getting me worried... one of my teacher's is alright with it, but last year on the last day of school, I thought I was gonna die and turns out I was alright. ^^' I managed to get things in on time. :'D ^.^ I have a bunch of journalism assignments to do, two science things, and that's pretty much it... *worry* ;; sigh...

suck on suckers, mother*****

Watching the earlier Harry Potter movies can bring so many memories back... c': Everyone sounded much MUCH younger back then... No wonder Daniel Radcliff didn't want to see the first movie again. :'D haha Oh, Dan... <3 But compared to the latest movie and the first one, the boys seem to have gotten hotter... :) :D

The Hogwarts robes were too expensive and the quality was crappy, so my brother got a V for Vendetta mask, and I got a pretty Italian mask imported from Italy. ^.^ :D When I first saw them, I was in awe and wanted one! haha But they were so expensive... but the one I got was decently prices, and I tried to convince my mother... hehe I love it though. :) :D Here's a pic!

I'm probably going to be a masquarader for Halloween... I have a dress that would go with it, so I'm glad. ^.^

Gotta do homework, or I'm SCREWED. >.< ;; XD

ff.net

The status on the fanfiction.net profile allows you to see the country the people who visit your story come from. So many countries... Ever since I wrote for UK TV shows such as Doctor Who, Robin Hood BBC and such I've been getting more attention from the UK and parts of Europe. Ever since I wrote a French OC for Robin Hood, I've been getting a lot of attention from France... hehe

I found this site that morphs celebrities and makes there "morph babies". It's quite amusing... I used Hayden Panettiere and Milo Ventimiglia (they broke upppppp ;;) and made their "baby". :) It was so cute. :D <3

halloweennnnnnn

I finally know what I want to be for Halloween... a Hogwarts student from the book series "Harry Potter". Can't wait to get to the store...! ^.^ I did a quiz to see which house I might belong to, and first place was Hufflepuff, then Griffindor was second. Third was Ravenclaw, and the last (thank god) was Slytherin (a friend told me if he was the Sorting Hat, he'd put me in Slytherin XD). Hopefully, the shop has all the houses, besides Griffindor... ;;

I've been digging into the Harry Potter wiki... hehe, must be my new obsession. 8)

Now I must do homework. ;A; bawwwww