Hello, peopless how you doing?

I am so sorry for not being here often. ;; I just got onto tumbler to be around friends more.

Here's my account.

But I still love this kind of blogging...! c':

oh hai

So so soooo so sorry for not being on here. Life caught me by the fist and made me slave a way in a prison called SCHOOL.

I've been writing a lot, but fanfiction.net had some technological errors, and I can't upload a new chapter to a story of mine. Ugh... So frustrating. ><

There was some good stuff that happened (such as the guest list for my city's comic con :D :D :D VIC MIGNOGNA), there was unsettling things that occur... bipolar dayyyyyy haha...

So, to just dish it out... I always felt the need to have a boyfriend recently, but I go from "men are overrated" to me loathing being single. During this one drama period of mine a few months ago, I justified my "I need a boyfriend" spiel with VENGEANCE. Vengeance stories are as cheesy as "justice" stories, no one wants to do it. XD I was being an idiot, and I replied to the guy at like... midnight, so yeah. Plus I was at a OneRepublic concert, so...

Perhaps I just wanted to be in a relationship to forget this one guy. If I was in a relationship, I would move on, be like every one of my friends who are in relationships and experience what others are going through. The person who I had feelings for claimed he was dating a guy, then in the summer he dated a girl, so I guess that what got me set up or something... But I couldn't bring myself to ask him what got him back to liking girls.

Other than that... I got no regrets.

every february you'll be my valentineeeee

February, without a doubt is the busiest month in my life. Perhaps with the excitement that it is the month of my birthday. I'm so glad it's on a long weekend so I can extend it a bit if I wanted a sleepover or out of town trip. ^.^

I'm off to an old friends reunion party tomorrow, so I'm excited. I'm planning this Doctor Who party with another one of my friends in the future, so yes. LOTS of parties recently. haha

Dentist appointment, big church event, new semester... I'm a busy girl. haha

I made one of my classes a spare, instead of taking a higher class so I won't have to upgrade as much in the future after graduation, but I'd be taking three core subjects. Murder. XP So I have three classes and an online psychology class. heh

I feel like I want to say more, but I can't seem to get it out... fehhhhh

*lovieeee*

solly... ;;

So... I've been away for a long time. Yeah. <3 Missed you.

Recap on our December month! I was ill with a fever, and it was the WORST fever of the history of being sick thus far. But with Christmas and Boxing Day, I was happy.

The past two months, I have been buirred in Doctor Who works (mostly Christoper Eccleston *'s @$$*), and I've been writing one shots, drabbles and poems. I looked back at my older works, and there's still other chaptered fics that need to be updated with the latest chapter. One of my fics haven't been updated since grade 9, so... yeah. I gave spoilers to a close friend of mine to make it up to her, but hopefully I'll get them done eventually. Other wise... heh. Life's life.

I had a vision for one of my fics, ever since I started on fanfiction.net. A saga of this character, going on a journey not just through a mysterious land of "Baten Kaitos" (a videogame. If you have Gamecube or Wii, PLAY IT. It's totally underrated and unheard... it deserves more love), but a journey for herself and how the journey changes her as a person. She finds love, familial love, and a love interest in a certain red head. *Lyude* ;) And so far... I feel behind, but with faith, I hope this character is loved by readers. I had high hopes for this idea that I had on to for so long... First launch was a Mary Sue of a character and every mistake in the book of a budding "writer". But I'm glad that I went through the years of work and understanding. if I don't share it with the world, I'd be crush and feel like it's something that I should have done, but never did.

With certain factors and me not getting right to cleaning my room, my mother has thrown out my ideas papers and notebook for my stories. I can probably recall most of them from memory, or possibly improve the idea now that I have a fresh plate... fics will probably be drawn out longer, butttt ugh. So frustrated. Other than that... yeah. Hopefully, everything will turn out for the best. It's just fanfiction...

 I hope you're all well...

XOXO,


Pieda the Mokona <3

“You will be pretty intelligent, pretty creative, pretty amazing. But you, will never be merely 'pretty'.”

jimmy olsennnnn

So I got back report cards today from school! They're awesome, except this one class... yeah, I won't go into that. haha... My journalism mark is at 96%! :D ^.^ so happy :} gonna dance till the dawn, ooh, yeah baby...! X3 :D

Perhaps... if things don't go well according to plan, journalism could be a plan B. ... I could be both Lois Lane AND Jimmy Olsen. My journalism teacher likes my photos, and most of my successful articles. haha... Ooh, but I'm not going into journalism for a man of steel... haha! Alas, my life is not Smallville, but if it was, I'd totally be freaking out (in a good enthusiastic way) that I have a superhuman power. :D Jimmy Olsen and Superman were buddies in the original comic series... In Smallville, Jim doesn't even KNOW Clark has powers, and they're not exactly close. ... and Green Arrow is with Chloe in season 9. ... You are with Black Canarey, Oliver Queen. Not lil' Miss OC. NOW BREAK UP WITH HER AND GO MAKE LOVE TO CANERY

*coff* thank you.

Nite nite for now...! <3

christopher ecclestonnnn

I used to fret about a certain someone reading this blog, but for some reason I don't need to know... I didn't ask. In my mind's "soap opera", there was this dramatic moment when I ask him if he's reading my blog, or if he knew a "Vanessa" (look at the later blog post). If he does know what I'm talking about (Vanessa), he's read my blog, but I don't need to ask him. 

It doesn't matter if you read the blog or not... if our relationship still is there, or not. If you still want to be friends, fine. I'm fine on my own, and if you want to be part of my life, even better! You brought out the chatty side of me. To express my opinions, since I'm always so quiet and held down at home, even though there was some drama between us. I love you and respect you as your friend and brother. I wish our friendship was closer, but we all aren't Doctor Who and have a TARDIS to go back in time. I won't ask if you're reading this blog. I don't need to know. It's just fine as is if I don't ask.

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Other than that, I'm trying to catch up with Doctor Who... In my opinion, Christopher Eccleston is the best doctor. He's just so... handsome. ;) Why did he decide to leave the show... ;; but I suppose, one door closes, another opens. :) I suppose he went on to do other things, rather be tied down to one thing, and be stuck with it for the rest of his life as a typecast, or some other reasons... There were other rumors, but hey... at least he's good looking. ;) Plus, David Tennet hit big after Chris, so at least that's a plus. :) <3 Chris Eccleston <3

Glee Club

My school's doing a Glee club like they do in the show. It's gunna be awesome. :)

I never watched the show, but I did see clips on YouTube. Hopefully, I'll catch up soon... ;; I need Smallville, seasons 3 and 9, definitely getting season 10 when it comes out on DVD. Heroes is a work of art... until the later seasons. I'm only going to get season one. haha

The song I'm going to sing for my audition is "Un-thinkable (I'm Ready)" by Alicia Keys.

I've been catching up on manga recently... Fruits Basket and Emma, to be specific. I have ADHD like reactions to books, but I'm not dumb... I'm a visual learner, and I suppose it's like getting someone to read Japanese when they don't know the language. haha

Recently, there is this friend in my life who I... can't explain why I have these feelings around him. I get nervous when I run into him when I pass by him. I look away from the nervousness. It may sound corny, but... I kinda go crazy when he says my name. He's saying more jokes around me to make me laugh. We're making every excuse to talk to each other more. We put up so much of our bad sides when we really got to know each other, but I felt guilty for doing them. I don't know what he things, but I think he feels guilty too... I hope I didn't scare him away with my emotions. I always do that to the people in my life, due to certain factors that make me need "support" from others around me in my life. I'm doing a "redemption" thing for myself for the people around me. But if bridges were burnt and can't be rebuilt, it was meant to have ended. Hopefully, no matter what happens, everything will be fine and safe and reputations will be intact.

ankle

I just injured my ankle this afternoon. I'm being optimistic about it, but I realized I took movement for granted. I dance a little... but I love to move around and dance to music for fun. It helps bring out inspiration for my writing. One important thing that this injury has brought out though, is that it made me realize how important things are in life. :) :D

What I wouldn't give to be Claire Bennet from 'Heroes'... haha! I'd heal wayyyyy faster.

NaNoWriMo

It is gonna be a every hard month... Homework, and fanfics... *sigh* But still have inspiration. :) Plus, been getting a lot of attention from my stories, so I'm very happy. :D Faves, left, right and center... Back when I was a newbie, a review was like gold. Also faves on stories and Author faves or alerts was BEYOND gold. haha...

Reallyyyy tried. >.< Hopefully, I'll get homework done. :'D

HAPPY HALLOWEENNNN

I posted three things on ff.net, and I got LOTS of faves and reviews. ^.^ Made my day. :)

Writing a story is like venting a bad day... once I'm done and I read it over, I feel like the negative experience was worth the pain and suffering and I can smile and feel so much better. :)

Must do homework... >.< ;;

difference between like and love?

"It's not you, it's me..." 

LOTS of emphasis on the ME part... or I'm just hormonal, and when I'm like that, people say I'm blaming others for my problems... or is it that certain people these days aren't what they used to be back a few decades ago.

Most of my friends were or are in a relationship. I never had a boyfriend, except a line of ex-friends... but I suppose the friendship was waning anyways... One guy was kinda introverted, a tad mean, but... hehe The other was a plan ass, and is probably doing drugs. One guy taught me you could still be friends even if the feeling was not returned, and I'm still going strong with one friend who I'll probably see being friends for a long long time... It's just I wish I was one of those close friends for a certain person, and I didn't screw up as much... Or would he have faded out like the rest of the "acquaintances"? I respected him so much as a friend when I first met him... but I love him as a friend and "brother". That will never change.

I get scared or something when I here "I don't care". I have no idea... my mom says it to me, my brother does (well, duh, he's my brother...). I have no idea why I care so much... I only do it if I'm REALLY provoked and I get mad... One time I got so mad, so alienated, so lonely... I yelled at a certain person... and I said those words like an argument between my dad and my mother.

Unlucky star, flee from the skies and burn away... Brightest night, guide me to haven and rest.

:D

I placed in an application and resume at this shop. They told me to wait, so I did, and right on the spot I landed an interview. My first job interview ever... Still can't get over the shock. hehe...

I placed resumes to over ten places... Hope they won't be disappointed. hehe ;) Work experience, here I come!! :D

busyyy

I'm extremely busy this week... haha I'm seeing a friend after school this week, seeing my cousin for dinner on the weekend, photo op for grad, and getting in resumes for a job. hehe... Mother's been driving me up the wall about grad... perhaps budgeting, what not? Something... happened, and I'm trying to get over it. I just can't believe a family member would still do that to me... I told a friend and she told me to get serious help, but that's just going into child stuff I know since Elementary school. haha

Saw "The Social Network" with a friend on Friday. It was decent, but not my all time fave... interesting to see how Facebook came to be. Wonder how the people thought about the actors and events that were portrayed. Nice to see someone portrayed Grace Kelly's son the Prince of Monaco. haha

Tired... ;;

Must... do... homework! ;; My journalism teacher gives unreasonable deadlines.

marvelllll

Ultimate Marvel universe line comics rocks my socks... and are so funny. :D Better get into them. ^.^ I loved Fantastic Four. ^.^ Plus, I'm digging back into mangas such as Fruits Basket and Emma. <3 :) :D

Shakira's new song "Loca" is sexy. <3 Keep on rocking, Shakira! Te amo!! <3

I have three major projects on the go... ;; One of them was due... *coff*twoweeksago*coff* but never mind. *wide eyes off into the distance and big grin* If this was Deviantart I would use a lot of spazz icons... hehe :D Must... do... homework... ;; ><

A big newspaper run by students took my picture, and they're gonna put it in the paper. :} :D <3

Was gonna say something, but I forgot... *derp*

the world will look up and shout 'save us!' and I'll whisper 'no'

I'm obsessing over 'Watchmen'... I haven't the faintest why. Rorschach is soooooo fine. :3 :D

I feel so guilty not updating any of my fics in September... ;; ;A; Writer's block is a pisser, and October's halfway through. >< ;; I'm so sad...

Lizanne... Louise. I like those names. If I had a daughter, I'd pick one of those names (if I had a boy, I'd choose Owen). (Not saying because I'm pregnant! XD haha)

So tired... cold season must be coming in. Already, I miss summer. The thing is, it's uncanny. When I was younger, I was a little moody. I suppose all young girls go through that... I had it good back then, but when it does start to get good for me, all of a sudden... in high school it started to get bad around me (friends wise). I would have called myself a bad name when I was younger, but during high school... I didn't say a word about myself. It was so bad last summer due to... some people, but I'm glad to have gone through the drama since I've learned how to respect myself. It built me up, rather than humiliate me. Let go of pride and don't think of humiliation and how stained your reputation is, and you'll keep your sanity.

Nite for now! 

we love u snapeeeee

I have this crazy idea... It's a Harry Potter fanfic with OCs... AU-ish from the start of 'Order of the Phoenix' to 'Deathly Hallows'. With some character study and more research into the Harry Potter universe, I may get a good fic and some respectable attention...

Severus runs into an old classmate of his which leads into a domino effect of events.

Hm... first good line spewed so far. Hope I'll make it. :) :D

crazy inspriation

I feel like writing today... Writing a lot. haha Plus, I need to catch up on the last Harry Potter book so I'll be on time for the movie. hehe... Damn, short attention span... XP

It will be my mother's birthday on Monday, so I have to prepare for the day. ^.^ hehe

When I'm in an "inspirational" mood, I get so gitty I clear the space away, get out some music and start dancing. Plus some pink, sugary thoughts come along with a side of shojo "romantic boy-girl" moments. XD haha

what the...

This blog is saving my sanity... I'm so glad I decided to write in this from the start. ^.^

Usually, I have bouts of negative moods, but I'm at a low. Between one and ten, I'm at the lower middle, so I'm fine, it's just... a lot of things have been on my mind.

I just wish my mother would accept me as an individual, with my values and what I want to do in the future. I wanted to talk with her privately, but by brother was in the room. I asked her if he could go out but she wouldn't do anything about him leaving. I swore I could have heard that my brother being in the room was a good thing. ugh... Don't get me started on about him. 

When my teacher was talking about grad and at the banquet part of the ceremony we could sit with our friends, I got scared. Scared that I would be rejected. Rejected to a seating. It's always been complicated... I've never been around long enough for a "permanent friendship group" in my life... Either I don't feel like I belong with them, or I'm too impatient. I love to love people and it pains me when I hurt someone. Before I was self actualized, there was this period of time when I felt the need to please everyone in my life, but I would receive failed results and everything would back fire on me. But I hope... for grad, when the time comes I will sit with the people who stayed true to me ever since the beginning.

Speaking of my mother, I fear for my dad. He's getting old and a little moody, it's just... I wish I could do something to help him. (Would add more, it's just... so tired...)

It's so frustrating everyday, that I'm surprised I'm still alive typing to the empty space that is the internet... I fear that I'll be a stranger to people, inside the family and out... but I could just be over reacting.

*~Let a lucky star guide my way and lead me out of the darkness...

grad

It's so freaky... grade one, then grade two, then soon I moved to another school for grade three. Then once I was done grade seven I moved to another part in my country for junior high. Now this is my last year of high school. Then it's off to college... When I was little I wanted to grow up faster, but now that I'll almost be an adult, it's frighting. I suppose there are things that I haven't done yet and I just need to take time to adjust to everything and think about what's important. *sigh* Where's Neverneverland when you need it? ... PETER PANNNNNNN ;; ><' Hey, at least it's like... an anti-aging place. :'D XD

I got a dress over the summer and friends tell me to save it for grad. I haven't worn it yet, so yeah... Luckily, it survived my closet, which I'm glad... an accident happened in there. ;; DX 

Homework's getting me worried... one of my teacher's is alright with it, but last year on the last day of school, I thought I was gonna die and turns out I was alright. ^^' I managed to get things in on time. :'D ^.^ I have a bunch of journalism assignments to do, two science things, and that's pretty much it... *worry* ;; sigh...

suck on suckers, mother*****

Watching the earlier Harry Potter movies can bring so many memories back... c': Everyone sounded much MUCH younger back then... No wonder Daniel Radcliff didn't want to see the first movie again. :'D haha Oh, Dan... <3 But compared to the latest movie and the first one, the boys seem to have gotten hotter... :) :D

The Hogwarts robes were too expensive and the quality was crappy, so my brother got a V for Vendetta mask, and I got a pretty Italian mask imported from Italy. ^.^ :D When I first saw them, I was in awe and wanted one! haha But they were so expensive... but the one I got was decently prices, and I tried to convince my mother... hehe I love it though. :) :D Here's a pic!

I'm probably going to be a masquarader for Halloween... I have a dress that would go with it, so I'm glad. ^.^

Gotta do homework, or I'm SCREWED. >.< ;; XD