jimmy olsennnnn

So I got back report cards today from school! They're awesome, except this one class... yeah, I won't go into that. haha... My journalism mark is at 96%! :D ^.^ so happy :} gonna dance till the dawn, ooh, yeah baby...! X3 :D

Perhaps... if things don't go well according to plan, journalism could be a plan B. ... I could be both Lois Lane AND Jimmy Olsen. My journalism teacher likes my photos, and most of my successful articles. haha... Ooh, but I'm not going into journalism for a man of steel... haha! Alas, my life is not Smallville, but if it was, I'd totally be freaking out (in a good enthusiastic way) that I have a superhuman power. :D Jimmy Olsen and Superman were buddies in the original comic series... In Smallville, Jim doesn't even KNOW Clark has powers, and they're not exactly close. ... and Green Arrow is with Chloe in season 9. ... You are with Black Canarey, Oliver Queen. Not lil' Miss OC. NOW BREAK UP WITH HER AND GO MAKE LOVE TO CANERY

*coff* thank you.

Nite nite for now...! <3

christopher ecclestonnnn

I used to fret about a certain someone reading this blog, but for some reason I don't need to know... I didn't ask. In my mind's "soap opera", there was this dramatic moment when I ask him if he's reading my blog, or if he knew a "Vanessa" (look at the later blog post). If he does know what I'm talking about (Vanessa), he's read my blog, but I don't need to ask him. 

It doesn't matter if you read the blog or not... if our relationship still is there, or not. If you still want to be friends, fine. I'm fine on my own, and if you want to be part of my life, even better! You brought out the chatty side of me. To express my opinions, since I'm always so quiet and held down at home, even though there was some drama between us. I love you and respect you as your friend and brother. I wish our friendship was closer, but we all aren't Doctor Who and have a TARDIS to go back in time. I won't ask if you're reading this blog. I don't need to know. It's just fine as is if I don't ask.

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Other than that, I'm trying to catch up with Doctor Who... In my opinion, Christopher Eccleston is the best doctor. He's just so... handsome. ;) Why did he decide to leave the show... ;; but I suppose, one door closes, another opens. :) I suppose he went on to do other things, rather be tied down to one thing, and be stuck with it for the rest of his life as a typecast, or some other reasons... There were other rumors, but hey... at least he's good looking. ;) Plus, David Tennet hit big after Chris, so at least that's a plus. :) <3 Chris Eccleston <3

Glee Club

My school's doing a Glee club like they do in the show. It's gunna be awesome. :)

I never watched the show, but I did see clips on YouTube. Hopefully, I'll catch up soon... ;; I need Smallville, seasons 3 and 9, definitely getting season 10 when it comes out on DVD. Heroes is a work of art... until the later seasons. I'm only going to get season one. haha

The song I'm going to sing for my audition is "Un-thinkable (I'm Ready)" by Alicia Keys.

I've been catching up on manga recently... Fruits Basket and Emma, to be specific. I have ADHD like reactions to books, but I'm not dumb... I'm a visual learner, and I suppose it's like getting someone to read Japanese when they don't know the language. haha

Recently, there is this friend in my life who I... can't explain why I have these feelings around him. I get nervous when I run into him when I pass by him. I look away from the nervousness. It may sound corny, but... I kinda go crazy when he says my name. He's saying more jokes around me to make me laugh. We're making every excuse to talk to each other more. We put up so much of our bad sides when we really got to know each other, but I felt guilty for doing them. I don't know what he things, but I think he feels guilty too... I hope I didn't scare him away with my emotions. I always do that to the people in my life, due to certain factors that make me need "support" from others around me in my life. I'm doing a "redemption" thing for myself for the people around me. But if bridges were burnt and can't be rebuilt, it was meant to have ended. Hopefully, no matter what happens, everything will be fine and safe and reputations will be intact.

ankle

I just injured my ankle this afternoon. I'm being optimistic about it, but I realized I took movement for granted. I dance a little... but I love to move around and dance to music for fun. It helps bring out inspiration for my writing. One important thing that this injury has brought out though, is that it made me realize how important things are in life. :) :D

What I wouldn't give to be Claire Bennet from 'Heroes'... haha! I'd heal wayyyyy faster.

NaNoWriMo

It is gonna be a every hard month... Homework, and fanfics... *sigh* But still have inspiration. :) Plus, been getting a lot of attention from my stories, so I'm very happy. :D Faves, left, right and center... Back when I was a newbie, a review was like gold. Also faves on stories and Author faves or alerts was BEYOND gold. haha...

Reallyyyy tried. >.< Hopefully, I'll get homework done. :'D

HAPPY HALLOWEENNNN

I posted three things on ff.net, and I got LOTS of faves and reviews. ^.^ Made my day. :)

Writing a story is like venting a bad day... once I'm done and I read it over, I feel like the negative experience was worth the pain and suffering and I can smile and feel so much better. :)

Must do homework... >.< ;;

difference between like and love?

"It's not you, it's me..." 

LOTS of emphasis on the ME part... or I'm just hormonal, and when I'm like that, people say I'm blaming others for my problems... or is it that certain people these days aren't what they used to be back a few decades ago.

Most of my friends were or are in a relationship. I never had a boyfriend, except a line of ex-friends... but I suppose the friendship was waning anyways... One guy was kinda introverted, a tad mean, but... hehe The other was a plan ass, and is probably doing drugs. One guy taught me you could still be friends even if the feeling was not returned, and I'm still going strong with one friend who I'll probably see being friends for a long long time... It's just I wish I was one of those close friends for a certain person, and I didn't screw up as much... Or would he have faded out like the rest of the "acquaintances"? I respected him so much as a friend when I first met him... but I love him as a friend and "brother". That will never change.

I get scared or something when I here "I don't care". I have no idea... my mom says it to me, my brother does (well, duh, he's my brother...). I have no idea why I care so much... I only do it if I'm REALLY provoked and I get mad... One time I got so mad, so alienated, so lonely... I yelled at a certain person... and I said those words like an argument between my dad and my mother.

Unlucky star, flee from the skies and burn away... Brightest night, guide me to haven and rest.

:D

I placed in an application and resume at this shop. They told me to wait, so I did, and right on the spot I landed an interview. My first job interview ever... Still can't get over the shock. hehe...

I placed resumes to over ten places... Hope they won't be disappointed. hehe ;) Work experience, here I come!! :D

busyyy

I'm extremely busy this week... haha I'm seeing a friend after school this week, seeing my cousin for dinner on the weekend, photo op for grad, and getting in resumes for a job. hehe... Mother's been driving me up the wall about grad... perhaps budgeting, what not? Something... happened, and I'm trying to get over it. I just can't believe a family member would still do that to me... I told a friend and she told me to get serious help, but that's just going into child stuff I know since Elementary school. haha

Saw "The Social Network" with a friend on Friday. It was decent, but not my all time fave... interesting to see how Facebook came to be. Wonder how the people thought about the actors and events that were portrayed. Nice to see someone portrayed Grace Kelly's son the Prince of Monaco. haha

Tired... ;;

Must... do... homework! ;; My journalism teacher gives unreasonable deadlines.

marvelllll

Ultimate Marvel universe line comics rocks my socks... and are so funny. :D Better get into them. ^.^ I loved Fantastic Four. ^.^ Plus, I'm digging back into mangas such as Fruits Basket and Emma. <3 :) :D

Shakira's new song "Loca" is sexy. <3 Keep on rocking, Shakira! Te amo!! <3

I have three major projects on the go... ;; One of them was due... *coff*twoweeksago*coff* but never mind. *wide eyes off into the distance and big grin* If this was Deviantart I would use a lot of spazz icons... hehe :D Must... do... homework... ;; ><

A big newspaper run by students took my picture, and they're gonna put it in the paper. :} :D <3

Was gonna say something, but I forgot... *derp*

the world will look up and shout 'save us!' and I'll whisper 'no'

I'm obsessing over 'Watchmen'... I haven't the faintest why. Rorschach is soooooo fine. :3 :D

I feel so guilty not updating any of my fics in September... ;; ;A; Writer's block is a pisser, and October's halfway through. >< ;; I'm so sad...

Lizanne... Louise. I like those names. If I had a daughter, I'd pick one of those names (if I had a boy, I'd choose Owen). (Not saying because I'm pregnant! XD haha)

So tired... cold season must be coming in. Already, I miss summer. The thing is, it's uncanny. When I was younger, I was a little moody. I suppose all young girls go through that... I had it good back then, but when it does start to get good for me, all of a sudden... in high school it started to get bad around me (friends wise). I would have called myself a bad name when I was younger, but during high school... I didn't say a word about myself. It was so bad last summer due to... some people, but I'm glad to have gone through the drama since I've learned how to respect myself. It built me up, rather than humiliate me. Let go of pride and don't think of humiliation and how stained your reputation is, and you'll keep your sanity.

Nite for now! 

we love u snapeeeee

I have this crazy idea... It's a Harry Potter fanfic with OCs... AU-ish from the start of 'Order of the Phoenix' to 'Deathly Hallows'. With some character study and more research into the Harry Potter universe, I may get a good fic and some respectable attention...

Severus runs into an old classmate of his which leads into a domino effect of events.

Hm... first good line spewed so far. Hope I'll make it. :) :D

crazy inspriation

I feel like writing today... Writing a lot. haha Plus, I need to catch up on the last Harry Potter book so I'll be on time for the movie. hehe... Damn, short attention span... XP

It will be my mother's birthday on Monday, so I have to prepare for the day. ^.^ hehe

When I'm in an "inspirational" mood, I get so gitty I clear the space away, get out some music and start dancing. Plus some pink, sugary thoughts come along with a side of shojo "romantic boy-girl" moments. XD haha

what the...

This blog is saving my sanity... I'm so glad I decided to write in this from the start. ^.^

Usually, I have bouts of negative moods, but I'm at a low. Between one and ten, I'm at the lower middle, so I'm fine, it's just... a lot of things have been on my mind.

I just wish my mother would accept me as an individual, with my values and what I want to do in the future. I wanted to talk with her privately, but by brother was in the room. I asked her if he could go out but she wouldn't do anything about him leaving. I swore I could have heard that my brother being in the room was a good thing. ugh... Don't get me started on about him. 

When my teacher was talking about grad and at the banquet part of the ceremony we could sit with our friends, I got scared. Scared that I would be rejected. Rejected to a seating. It's always been complicated... I've never been around long enough for a "permanent friendship group" in my life... Either I don't feel like I belong with them, or I'm too impatient. I love to love people and it pains me when I hurt someone. Before I was self actualized, there was this period of time when I felt the need to please everyone in my life, but I would receive failed results and everything would back fire on me. But I hope... for grad, when the time comes I will sit with the people who stayed true to me ever since the beginning.

Speaking of my mother, I fear for my dad. He's getting old and a little moody, it's just... I wish I could do something to help him. (Would add more, it's just... so tired...)

It's so frustrating everyday, that I'm surprised I'm still alive typing to the empty space that is the internet... I fear that I'll be a stranger to people, inside the family and out... but I could just be over reacting.

*~Let a lucky star guide my way and lead me out of the darkness...

grad

It's so freaky... grade one, then grade two, then soon I moved to another school for grade three. Then once I was done grade seven I moved to another part in my country for junior high. Now this is my last year of high school. Then it's off to college... When I was little I wanted to grow up faster, but now that I'll almost be an adult, it's frighting. I suppose there are things that I haven't done yet and I just need to take time to adjust to everything and think about what's important. *sigh* Where's Neverneverland when you need it? ... PETER PANNNNNNN ;; ><' Hey, at least it's like... an anti-aging place. :'D XD

I got a dress over the summer and friends tell me to save it for grad. I haven't worn it yet, so yeah... Luckily, it survived my closet, which I'm glad... an accident happened in there. ;; DX 

Homework's getting me worried... one of my teacher's is alright with it, but last year on the last day of school, I thought I was gonna die and turns out I was alright. ^^' I managed to get things in on time. :'D ^.^ I have a bunch of journalism assignments to do, two science things, and that's pretty much it... *worry* ;; sigh...

suck on suckers, mother*****

Watching the earlier Harry Potter movies can bring so many memories back... c': Everyone sounded much MUCH younger back then... No wonder Daniel Radcliff didn't want to see the first movie again. :'D haha Oh, Dan... <3 But compared to the latest movie and the first one, the boys seem to have gotten hotter... :) :D

The Hogwarts robes were too expensive and the quality was crappy, so my brother got a V for Vendetta mask, and I got a pretty Italian mask imported from Italy. ^.^ :D When I first saw them, I was in awe and wanted one! haha But they were so expensive... but the one I got was decently prices, and I tried to convince my mother... hehe I love it though. :) :D Here's a pic!

I'm probably going to be a masquarader for Halloween... I have a dress that would go with it, so I'm glad. ^.^

Gotta do homework, or I'm SCREWED. >.< ;; XD

ff.net

The status on the fanfiction.net profile allows you to see the country the people who visit your story come from. So many countries... Ever since I wrote for UK TV shows such as Doctor Who, Robin Hood BBC and such I've been getting more attention from the UK and parts of Europe. Ever since I wrote a French OC for Robin Hood, I've been getting a lot of attention from France... hehe

I found this site that morphs celebrities and makes there "morph babies". It's quite amusing... I used Hayden Panettiere and Milo Ventimiglia (they broke upppppp ;;) and made their "baby". :) It was so cute. :D <3

halloweennnnnnn

I finally know what I want to be for Halloween... a Hogwarts student from the book series "Harry Potter". Can't wait to get to the store...! ^.^ I did a quiz to see which house I might belong to, and first place was Hufflepuff, then Griffindor was second. Third was Ravenclaw, and the last (thank god) was Slytherin (a friend told me if he was the Sorting Hat, he'd put me in Slytherin XD). Hopefully, the shop has all the houses, besides Griffindor... ;;

I've been digging into the Harry Potter wiki... hehe, must be my new obsession. 8)

Now I must do homework. ;A; bawwwww

so glad...

As I read through the X-Men Movie section again on ff.net, I realize... I'm glad I took a hiatus from the fandom. hehe... it's like reading a super ultra mega popular section. It's filled with Mary Sues, suethors, etc that clog up the site... pffttt... and it blocks out the GOOD fics. T^T Such as Ouran High School Host Club. Twilight's just a waste of data, if you ask me. ffffff Media of 2009, what the hell world!

updateeeee

Horray! Finally, I can up date something on ff.net... Since I pretty much didn't do s*** in September. 8) Writer's block sucks... Sasha is hibernating, don't blame herrrrr ;; I love my reviewers... <3 You inspire me to keep holding on and helped me put up with life everyday. :'D <3 Two new 'Heroes' drabbles/oneshots... Finishing off my Inception two-shot, so I can cease my friend's deprives of a *naked* Arthur. X3 Two Robin Hood BBC chaptered stories... Troy and a Toy Story chaptered stories. Yep. Sixty-two stories in three years... I did pretty good. :) Just a few months ago I was celebrating my 50th. Time flies when you're having fun, or I'm posting fics way too often... which could explain my marks last year... *sweatdrop*

I'm on the favourites list of 28 people, and the alert subscriptions of 30 people... *whew* Hope they climb. ^.^ I've been on a stream since this summer... :)

I've recently gone back into Harry Potter... It's good and love the world aspect of it, it's just since a friend told me she was annoyed with JKR placing "said" in dialogue, it drew her mad. Other than that, I have a tiny hint I want to write fics for the section... I have one too many OCs, and already I've thought of an OC for Heroes. ... heh

Possibly hanging out with a friend tomorrow, one person partying... ah, life.

It's just... I don't know if a certain someone is reading this blog. This morning when I was talking with someone, I thought my emotions were gonna pour, but I had to hold them back since it was the morning, and there was so much work and progress that I made rebuilding the bridge, it wasn't worth it. Plus... it would be hard to talk about it in such little time. Maybe Vanessa's waking up (which is a bad thing), so I'll have to try harder. There are other men out there. I've got to stop seeing those kind deeds he's doing for me as pushing me away and rejecting all of me. Perhaps... when I said "I love you", should I have added that I only said that out of a sister. And I still do, no matter how hard and brutal it was these past few years.

into de aslyummmmm

I'm with my friends in yearbook club... and they're insane. This is gunna be a good year for the yearbook club. 8) <3 love my hommies...

I adore extracuriculars, it's just connections and a whole bunch of other factors which are endless cut me off from them... Plus homework's a downer, so yeah... I'm not exactly sporty, but I do so sports for fun. ^.^

I was stressed out for homework a few hours ago, but I was being over dramatic, and glad I'm caught up with homework. ^.^ One half of my schedule's fun and I love the classes, and the other half is... not exactly my all time fave or stressful... Journalism can get pressing and stresses me a tad. I'm taking general sciences, but at least not the "lower" level. Higher levels can be loaded with homework, unless if you keep up with the work.

Got to go and listen to the teacher...! In trouble. >.<

zzzzzz

Lots of things happening in my life... learned about post secondary institutions more and found more specific ones that I want to take. If I filter the nagging opinions of my family members, I'll keep my sanity... Basically, there's a university that has the program I want, but my family members don't like it in general... I wanna get out of the city I'm in so badly... My family has such a narrow mind... mommy and daddy probably gave that to me! haha Hopefully I can afford college and upgrade my courses with the time and money...

A friend and I are putting together an anime and manga club. All we need is a teacher to sponsor us... hopefully it'll come true before I graduate. ^.^ :) September's almost ending, so I'd better catch up. ^.^

Now to clean myself and watch X-Men... hehe

sniktbubbbbbb

After watching the *coff* sugar coated X-Men Evolution, I got back into the movies again and was so glad I did. I love the pairing Logan/Rogue... :) I would have hanged out in the X-Men movie section more, it's just... there was some e-drama with a certain person... she ruined the pairing for me. :P I swear... curses and swears every five words. Oy... And people fave and like her as an author and her stories. She completely dissed the fandom for me. ><' But I may try to write a fic for Rogue and Logan if Sasha has any crazy ideas! :'D

Getting cream for skin... so glad I did. ^^ Hope it'll make my skin more healthier and prettier, not that I want to sound vain... hehe ;) XD haha

My mom wasn't around much when I was young... she had to work, since dad was unemployed. Since I was surrounded by men (my brother and my father) I had to convert my interest into guy interest. Sure, I like superheroes, cars (there are really adorable cute cars! Like the Volkswagon beetle! It's sooooo cute! *squee* :D), and probably more, but I do do the occasional clothing, perfume, and stuff. I'm no makeup artist, so I screw up there... My mother isn't exactly the beautician, which she screwed over my toenails... Other girls watch TV shows such as "Gossip Girl" and "One Tree Hill". I watch "Heroes" and "Smallville". I get so alienated when a female friend of mine and I share our interest, but I feel so awkward... I feel less girly and more of a guy. ... Guh, don't know how to finish this thought... something happened today between me and my mom, which turned into an argument, but hey... what doesn't happen in my family?

Gotta do dinner and finish science homework. My science teacher will BBQ me. XD

Peace and love...! <3 >3<

friendssss

are wonderful <3 a new friend made me unblock my writer's block and I can writeeeee <3 :3 let the insanity sue! :D

Somethings have been on my mind recently... there's this guy friend... he's real sweet, it's just... I don't know if he's giving off the signs that he's interested in me. The last time I thought that I had my heart broken. And there are moments when I feel there's those "more than friends" moment, it's just it all disappears when we talk. The friendship's so good... it'll be very depressing if it went to waste. I think he's the type of guy to stay friends if a relationship failed. He has an ex, who I smile and say hi to her, and I suppose they're still friends... There were "those" moments. hehe... I suppose he's one of the popular kids, but hey we're all human... can't go prejudging people. There are people with this notion that I have the tendency to get the people in my life to make me happy. Perhaps it's just miscommunication and that's how they interpret it, but... I love to love people... it's so sad when people put it like that. Still... my emotional issues... I don't want to taint him with those. He's such a good guy... he doesn't deserve it. If we ever go there... hopefully we'll be dancing together at graduation. :)

 I've been crossed with so many unlucky stars... let a bright one guide my way back into hope and love.

multiple personality disorder, anyone? XD

I usually talk about my personal life on Deviantart or Facebook, it's just… I've just got something on my mind. I swore to never talk about this on a blog, but I have to do it, otherwise it's just gonna swell.

Sasha's crazy, but deep down, she's not 100% evil. *offstage voice* "That's what she said…! *boot to the head* ow!"

So… during summer 2010… I realized I had another alter ego. Her name is Vanessa, otherwise known as "the lover". I had feelings for this guy for two years… he rejected me, but I don't know why I kept coming back for more blood and guts. I guess I was chasing for something that was never there…

But Vanessa… she's like Niki's alter ego, Jessica from the TV show Heroes. Violent. Brutal. The guy I had feelings for was in a new relationship at the time, and Vanessa got wild. Over the summer I sedated myself with positive thoughts, music with empowering beats and lyrics, shackling the monster that lives inside my mind. Whenever my emotions take control, I have to tighten the chains on Vanessa. Hopefully all the medication will make her sleep and she'll never harm me or anyone else again… forever.

Shall I add that the guy also wrote a blog during the summer? hehe… He wrote some pretty flattering words *sarcasm* about Vanessa… and me.

He's probably thinking as I write in this blog, "oh, she's just mocking me. She's going to blame me for her troubles. That's what's she's gonna post in the blog."

If you're reading this… I'm over you and our bridges were burned, but I hope they can be rebuilt. I won't talk about you in this blog in a negative light. I think you are a wonderful person, which is why I respect you highly and I think that was how we were friends when we first met.

… crap, I just technically talked about you and I promised myself not to. XD haha

begins to soarrrrrrrrrr

Lots on my mind... tired as frig, but life continues on. I could ramble on 29578934975 things, and I think one of then make sense, it's just it would just be confusing for you for the pit that is my mind.

I can't seem to get this one thing off my mind... I swore to never talk about personal life on the blog, but I supoose it will help my mentality. There was this performing arts jamborie that my school held... There was this boy I had feelings for for two years (this and that happened, but too tired to tell details, plus I'd have to write War and Peace all over again. No humorus allusions, but it seems appropriate for my situation... XD I was only pointing out the thickness of the book... XD). When it was his turn to sing... he sang a song about a person longing for someone to return and wishes that they could go back to the ways they used to be before the dramatic situation happened. I'm the queen of all things indirect and I was about to sing a song indirectly telling how I feel, so... but perhaps he only sang it for the fun of it. (I wrote something more, but it's on my other computer...) Soon it was my turn to sing and I sang "Til I Hear You Sing" from the musical "Love Never Dies". The song is about someone missing someone, and the perspective of the person realize it is going to be hard and he'll have to move on, but the feeling still stays behind dormant. And at the end of the performance... We both huged. It was as if... deep down inside we were forgiving each other and knew that the songs were for the both of us. (I'll have to explain more, but I have the notes on my laptop.)

You know who you are. Don't worry, I'm not going to say anything bad about you in this blog. Since you wrote a blog of your own this summer, I'm not copying you. Your a wonderful person and I know our bridges were burnt. I hope they can be rebuilt again...

aaaahhhhh... *capital letters explaination mark*

I hurt everywhere... My body doesn't feel healthy. I sometimes think I'm forgetting something, and when I think I have everything I forget something.

Carrie Underwood's coming to Calgary in December. Her tickets are surprisingly cheap. :D If it were Britney Spears, or Christina Aguilera, they'd be like... over a hundred bucks each ticket. The highest price for Underwood's sixty bucks! ^.^ A friend works at the stadium she's gonna perform at. Connections for the winnnnnn ^.^ Now to convince my mom... hehe

Glee season one's finally out on DVD. Every one of my friends watch it and like it, it's just... my family isn't too big on buying DVD season box sets. The only ones we have are the ones mom allows and approves and if they are cheap. ... So far all I'd like are Smallville season three and nine, and season one of Heroes.

So many things to do, so little memory space in the pit of despair and lollipops that is my mind...

vie le franceeee

There was is program that allows you to study abroad in high school. You get to go to parts of Europe such as England, France, Germany, Rome... even more! I would want to go, and I'd be all over it if it weren't for a certain parent... Financial issues come in my family, but there are scholarships. France is one of the countries I want to go to... I never been on a plane in four years. I want to see the world, learn different things, know that there is more to life...! But I feel anchored due to the people in my life...

There were plans I made in second semester... what about graduating with my friends? Do drama fest in May? Hang out with friends during spring break? But there is always the summer term and post secondary... Hope I can get out of Canada and travel one day...

crazyyyyyyy oh, wait I mean life

I'm writer's blocked... the cold weather coming's freezing up Sasha, so I can't get any fics up and running on the site. So sorry, readers. :( <3 love you all and your waiting. I haven't updated one fic since grade 9, and a close e-friend of mine wants to know how it goes, but I spoiled it for her anyways since time's running by too fast. X3 <3

Lately I've been listening to Celine Dion and Christina Aguliera's Spanish album "Mi Reflejo". Not that I'm complaining on the Christina songs, since I think they're wonderful. ^.^ Must be musing on a romance story... "El Beso del Final" is a BEAUTIFUL song. <3 :) A masterpiece... She sounds so magical when she sings in Spanish... "Come On Over (All I Want Is You)" sounds so much better in Spanish. "Falsas esperanzas" a good salsa tune to dance to, especially in the Dance Remix.

My friend loves Lady Gaga, and I love Beyonce... They did a song together called "Telephone". ... Our friendship was meant to be. :) :D That should be our song. ... In a platonic, fun friendship way. haha Coincidence is fun. :D

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I was thinking of this super human power... the TV show "Heroes" (which I highly recommend to watch :D) inspired me to think it up.

Speech mimicry. With this power a person has the flawless ability to impersonate and sound like anyone on the face of the Earth, including languages since the mimicry also copies vocal sounds and lip movement from human speech. 

I don't know if I should make an original character and write fics for her... I already have more than enough OCs to fill for... Who knows. :)

writing progress

When I write, I imagine my stories to be longer but they come out short. I get paranoid and feel like I left something out. Perhaps I should try not to think too much when I write. Put in less flowery words and it'll be easier.

I see others on fanfiction.net who's stories have tons of reviews, while I have my stories and they're only half of what the other authors have. I sound like a newbie, but… sometimes I get into bouts of insecurity. To get out, I tell myself… keep trying. Perhaps… my writing's decent it's just it's not what people are looking for.

I thought this one author wasn't very good and her stories almost made me barf, but I saw a kick ass writer have her on her favorite's list... Totally wrong, huh? I'm on the faves list of really good authors, it's just I hope I'm not a bad one...

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Here on the site, you can write more than one blog series… I might do another for book/movie/TV show/etc reviews, but to be critical, you really have to look. hehe I'll have to sleep on it.

SEVEN DAYSSSSS ... you will die :)

Recently I came across the movie "Julie and Julia" and saw how an online resource made Julie a phenomenon. Hopefully, recording my thoughts and progress on creative writing in a blog would help me get to the top, but without the part where I sign my life away and they make my life into a movie… haha… They have to include a lot of dead mooses in the movie... not because I was born in Canada. haha I'm not of European decent…

While we're on the subject of the internet, I have online friends from fanfiction.net I knew for three years. We're like sisters to each other and I never regret meeting them. <3 They lift me up in writing and encouraged me to improve, I'd doubt I'd be the woman I am today… :) *heart* I LOVE YOU GIRLS!! ^.^ :D

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National Novel Writing Month's coming up… I'm not sure if I should do it. All my friends are doing it… I'm busy with school…. the late nights, the tiredness… the cold of winter's a killer. I was going to see the doctor last year in November and didn't come home until seven in the evening on a school day. But it's the quantity in the stories, not quality… haha I have original ideas, but most of my ideas are fanfiction… hehe. It'll be good to start thinking original story ideas. Otherwise I'll be too dependent on other works to be inspired…

NEW YORKKKKKK CONCRETE JUNGLES WHERE DREAMS ARE MADE OFFFFFFFF

Yes, that was Empire State of Mind, Alicia Keys and Jay-Z. haha

I was at this insurance place with my mom and I saw a whole bunch of travel booklets. I saw "New York" and my eyes were drawn to it and I took it.

I always wanted to go to New York... the glitz and glam of the city's so awe inspiring. The starry night with the full moon in the sky... you're in a cafe, smelling the scent of coffee with the sound of the lazy saxophone. At Christmas it's even better. The Christmas lights, the snow, the ice skating... sipping hot chocolate, the malls... ah.

I also found out there are tickets to see Broadway performances such as Phantom of the Opera (squee!! :D), Chicago, Mamma Mia!, The Lion King, more... Hopefully the four star hotel's were just rated for how good they were and not the price...

It's just... my family has never been on a plane for four years, ever since I moved to a new city. I want to see the world, go out and do things. I feel confined and anchored in my own home. Mom says we couldn't afford an out of country trip in the past, but she's working over time for a new computer since my laptop's going to die soon (SOONER in the future, I hope... D:). ... SPEND IT ON A PLANE TICKET, MAAAAAAAAA ;;

Hopefully, I'll break free of my family's strict boundaries... I feel claustrophobic around them...

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Voyage of the Dawn Treader's coming out in December. :D *cheer* ^.^ :) Can't wait...

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My DVD case with my favorite movies has gone missing... I searched everywhere, and I haven't seen it. I found out when I wanted to see something, but it was in the said DVD case... I asked my mom, but she gave her unstraight answer as usual... what other skeletons is she hiding in the closet? ugh...

Once I get into something (ie, movie/TV series) I get into this obsessive search. I have to see everything. Deep down inside I am convinced I might find something if I see a certain movie. Recently I thought of all the childhood shows I watched when I was little...

When I get caught up like that, it's best if I calm myself and relax... hehe

imma let you finish, but...

So sorry if I sound haphazard... yesterday I ran into a pole, and it has affected my brain. Thus I will be more crazy. 8)

Something has just cross my mind... I adore male actors and drool over them, but when it comes to female actors... I do appreciate the art they create and hold them in high respect, it's just... if I fawn over actresses like I do actors, I'd feel a little awkward, since I'm looking at the same gender. Plus, I'm straight, so... XD haha

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I have a muse. Her name is Sasha.

Theme song - "Crazy In Love" - Beyonce

donotlaugh/judgewearelosers 8) Beyonce fans will get this... :3

She goes insane when she's on sugar... it's like her crack cocaine. 8) She inspires me in my ideas in writing.

I have come up with acronyms for our crazy little shrew. Severe All-hope-lost Shortage Hyperactive Apocalypse. 8)

Her greatest strength in inspiring me is drama. She goes "Shakespeare romyandjuilet/tobornuttob". ... with a hint of romance. She sometimes helps me with humor, but when it doesn't work out I sit back and shake my head and go "no..." But when it works out, it's usually 1-28754835375485739457. *sigh*

One day during around March or April, a woman came to me in my mind. I asked her what was her name, and she said "Sasha". I could tell she was a little bit... unusual since she had a glass of organic apple juice in her hand and looking at me funny...

(That is all I have now. Once I have a more permanent diagnosis, I will keep you updated. Merci. <3 )

in the beginning...

I've done public journals on Deviantart for three years, so this isn't new... :)

Hello, there computer land. How you doing?

I'm a young woman, hoping to accomplish my hopes and dreams. I love liberal arts and I hope to do them professionally in the future. Creative writing is my life and I can't live without it. I will get my works published in the future. :)

Influenced by Jack Coleman's wit and humor in his blog, the actor has made me want to make a blog of my own. ^.^ :)

Mostly, I'll write my experiences on acting, writing, and more... I want to be on the big screens... my name in a book. My voice on a CD, me dancing on a stage as Madonna, or some other pop singer's back up dancer. I want my name to be written in a history book.

Now to figure out how all this works out on the site... grr... accidently pressed the wrong button that I didn't want... haha

<3 peace and love